You are imagining some New York luxury job aren't you? Nope. It was a factory type job where I sorted things and put them in their proper containers. How Freudian. I was back there last night. Like I had never left. And I woke up confused. Wondering if that had been a real job I once had. It seemed so real and familiar. So. Let's take the "living in Europe" thing off the table. I obviously can't handle it.
Woo. You didn't know, after 5 years of blogging, that we might be riding the Crazy Train into the new year? I didn't know, either.
We'll just try and concentrate on things I feel comfortable doing. Simple things. Like making waffles for breakfast (the yeast ones), walking the dog in the woods (I marked the paths we took with surveyor's tape so I can find my way home in case I get lost --no sense of direction), posting my little cautionary snow woman, and filing for unemployment. There's laundry to do, ironing, my 12 by 12 piece and if I feel adventurous I can drive to the local Joann's for sewing machine needles (I found my coupon).
I'm going to stay on the marked path. In some ways this scare has been a good lesson. There are things we might want to try that are definitely NOT something we should focus on. And the recommendation of baby steps? Really good advice. I should have started with something small like getting a passport or watching foreign films.
Instead I will focus on "one step at a time" with my diet, my organization of the quilting supplies, my gardens and my work. Sounds like AA. Change what I can and accept what I can't change. Not a word but a concept. Nothing too scary. And it might just keep me away from the "factory".
3 comments:
I guess that you found some comfort in everything having a place and everything in its place so you dreamed about it when you couldn't have that control in your real life. I don't think that's crazy. I think it's a pretty normal reaction to a lot of stress, etc...
Foreign film recommendations from me (which you may or may not have already seen):
Babette's Feast;
M;
Beauty and the Beast (Cocteau version - La Belle et La Bet);
Jean de Florette;
Like Water for Chocolate;
Grand Illusion;
The Blue Angel;
The Scent of Green Papaya (LOVE IT!);
The Umbrellas of Cherbourg;
The Night of the Shooting Stars;
Metropolis;
That's probably more information than you wanted or needed but those are some of my favorites.
Just for the record I think you would do great in Europe. I think you would do great anywhere you choose to go.
I dream of living abroad too. Not Europe, but Mexico or South America, although I think Italy would be nice. I am looking for someplace with a temperate climate and an artistic culture. The realities of actually doing this are, however, daunting. Just traveling brings up all kinds of anxieties, which actually disappear once I am there, but actually moving might be too much!
Well if you mean 'Germany' when you write about moving to Europe, it is familiar ground for you and hasn't changed much plus you already have 'friends' waiting. No need to be anxious...lol...
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