Almost Like Our Porch

With a few tweaks G and I could make this work.  He has the rockers.  We have the bench he built.  We actually need a ceiling fan to blow the mosquitos off our scent.  But, I just noticed the screens.  Now that would make the front porch perfection.  I must ask the carpenter about this.  If and when he ever shows up.


I went to work yesterday.  At about 4 pm I was really wishing I hadn't.  Sweat was running into my eyes and it burned.  But I made it through.  My co-workers were (are) super supportive.  And I had a few great customers.  We even searched  on the iPhone for animal paw prints to see if the midnight marauder (who upturned a planter on a customer's deck) was a woodchuck, raccoon or skunk.  We are pretty sure it was a skunk.  Night time and didn't eat the plants.

I spent the day making a rhubarb pie.  Going to the bank, finally, to deposit five weekly paychecks. Going to the grocery to buy fruit.  I got mangos, limes, lemons and more cherries.  I skipped the peaches as they stay hard as a rock for too long and then don't have that sweet juicy peachiness that I love.  I lived in Georgia.  I ate peaches there.  And they were very, very good.  I also skipped the buy one get one free pineapples.  Over ripe, I think.

While the pie was baking, and after I made G lunch (and ate lunch myself), I decided to read the book recommended to me at the interview.  Many Lives, Many Masters.  It's about past life therapy.  Initially, it was recommended to me because I expressed a deep fear of water.  Especially, ocean water.  Deep and dark.  Our fears could be grounded in a past life experience or death.  I read the whole book before 6 pm.  And then ordered the next two books by this author.

It's not that I believe in past life regressions, (well, I sort of want to).  I was most taken with the need to learn lessons in each life, to become a better human being with each life, to suffer in one life if you have made someone suffer in a past life, even to reconnect time and time again with the same souls.  I am interested in this because 20 years ago I had my natal chart read.  I wanted to know what I was supposed to accomplish or learn in this life I am leading now.  I had the feeling I was not doing what I was destined to do.

Well, turned out, I had no destiny (besides being a mother) to fulfill.  The chart reader said I had a "free ticket" and should enjoy my life, no worries.  Well, I have worries as you all know.  Most of them self manufactured.  So this book, Many Lives, was interesting.  I could see that my life has been very good (mostly) this time around.  I try and live by the "golden rule" (do unto others etc) ---- the optimum word here is TRY --- and you all know about the smile project I started a few weeks ago.  I am already past the hurdle of being afraid of death, unless I drown.  I have no memories of past lives.

 BUT---I do dislike having anything tight around my neck.  I fear dark water.  I choke on things.  I have trouble falling asleep and staying asleep.  And there are people I like or dislike on sight.  No reasons.  So there are things in my "past" lives that are still haunting me.  I have never met my soulmate and have never gone looking for him or her.  I recognized my son as someone I had known and loved in another life the very first time I looked at him.  I have a feeling my grandmother recognized me from a past life.  It's possible my mother did as well, and that's why she disliked me, even as a baby.  Wouldn't it be something if my grandmother was there to protect me?  She, my grandmother, certainly suffered in that life, but she loved me.  And I am what I am because she loved me.

Anyway, an interesting read.  Lots to think about.