Peonies, False Indigo, Lady's Mantle

I clipped a June bouquet from my garden this morning.  I usually don't cut the peonies for the house, but in past years, just as the bloom is at it's most gorgeous, a heavy rain knocks all the petals down and it's too late.  These are the first four blossoms.  I may cut one of the darker reds later today as the bud opens a bit more.  It's overcast, warm and occasionally sunny.  A good day to be in the garden planting things.

Riley is acting oddly.  I think it is the Advantix we apply each month to keep ticks off him.  I noticed, some, last month that he acted different in the three or four days after the application.  This time, it is more noticeable and he is alternating between staring off into space (like he's stoned) and ignoring us.  It's sort of like he wonders WHO we are.  Can dogs get Alzheimers?  He refused to obey any commands on Saturday.  He was better on Sunday.  Today seems a lot like Saturday.  I think he remembers and identifies stronger with G and that's why Sunday was better.   Needless to say, this was the very last application of Advantix Riley will ever have.  I just hope it wears off and isn't permanent.  I liked the dog we've had for five years.  The dog I am spending the day with today---not so much.

I am trying to catch up on my daily food diary entries--I was about five days behind, which is always an indication of loss of interest.  Trying to remember what I ate five days earlier isn't all that difficult since I tend to eat the same stuff over and over.  I am fatigued and at a loss regarding the stall I am experiencing. Yes, I have absolutely no food cravings (a huge success).  I guess that will have to be enough.  It's just that I worry that once I truly "give up" thinking I might lose some weight or inches; it will be difficult to stay with this eating pattern.  Hope is such a strong motivation.

I can already see fractures.  If it doesn't matter (in the size of my hips) what I eat; why can't I eat cereal or home made granola?  If I am eating some fruits, why not a banana?  I DO know that the moment my regular pants get tight--all the extras stop.  I just hope I will be able to stop.  I am not tempted by bread or pasta (right now) but I KNOW that the first bite of bread will be a serious error on my part.

If I listed what I eat in a single day, every one of you would exclaim "it's not enough".  Really, it's very little.  Not that I am starving myself.  But I should be losing weight.  I wish that I had someone, fighting the same fight, to talk to about this.  I look at the websites and forums and mostly people are looking for ways to eat the foods they love (junk) by subbing low calorie or low carb items.  I don't do that.  I tend to do best by just not eating things I shouldn't eat.

Thank you for saying that Wolf Hall wasn't too "lofty" for me.  I am devouring it.  Deliciously written. It helps that I read the the Sanscom mysteries and just watched the Tudor marathon from Showtime.  I have a good idea of the historical plot lines and can keep up with the characters.