Happy New Year

I have this (odd) belief that what we do on the last day of the year is sort of a view of what we will be doing in the new year. It has usually been pretty reliable. I spent new year's eve watching Bones reruns, solving Suduko puzzles and having popcorn for dinner instead of a meal. I had intended to have cake and ice cream for dinner but by the time I served the popcorn, it was almost 9 pm. Too late for cake.

Earlier in the day (yesterday), we visited the library for new books and then went to the gallery and took my quilts down. I also got to visit with the marketing rep for new editions of Dahlov Ipcar's early books. The Little Fisherman is gorgeous in it's new size and vibrant color. The rep took a digital photo of my Ipcar themed quilt to show the artist.

I have our dinner (ham simmering in classic Coke) on the stove, G is asleep (doesn't bode well for the coming year) and the sun is shining on the dog bed and he is napping. Temps outside are in the single digits and the wind is blowing. Baby, it's cold outside.

I have a doctor's appointment to cancel (or find out what it will cost without insurance), a dentist appointment and an appointment for an eye exam. All of these things are great ways to begin the year, when you have insurance. Not so great, when you don't.

I want to go down and organize my workspace. Right now it isn't conducive to work. I know I said I was going down there a week or so ago, but I baked banana bread and Snickerdoodles instead. I dumped all the rolled quilts from my show onto the table yesterday afternoon and shut the door on the mess inside. Is that what's in store for me in 2009?

I have been procrastinating in the past two months (didn't even purchase my usual, favorite calendar this Christmas), over eating to comfort myself (pants are tight), watching news shows too much (depressing) and just getting through each day. I need to start (slowly) with a doable to do list each day and work on it all day. Five things. And make a larger, monthly, list of goals to work toward. I hesitate to write goals for a whole year.

I know people do one year and five year goals. I never have. Might be the reason my life seems rather arbitrary and without focus. I just do things. Or not. That's why holidays and dinnertime surprise me sometimes. I have NO IDEA where I am heading this year.

I want to settle my dad's estate (major procrastination). File for unemployment. Visit K. Make a small hand sewn fabric piece each month. (I was thinking one a week but that's way too much for me right now). Plan my vegetable garden more efficiently and start my seeds on time and not forget to water and transplant them. I want potatoes and onions in the garden this year. I also want to be dressed in clothes (not pajamas) before lunchtime. I've got 25 minutes to accomplish that today.

So, the good stuff today. Sunshine. Amaryllis almost ready to bloom. Ham for dinner. Books to read (at least for me, G may have to re-read Shogun again). Chocolate cake for dessert. With ice cream.