Daily Notes for Sunday December 29th. Cloudy almost 50 degrees with snow still on the ground.

 What it feels like..emotionally...here in Maine this morning.  An open road available....under cloudy skies.

I am doing a load of laundry- I needed clean clothing.....it's all in the dryer now.  Tumbling. I noticed a second pair of pants in the wash-  of great interest to me as I had difficulty finding clean pants in the closet that fit me this morning.  With 25 cent LLBean pants- the size label inside is often not helpful or correct...the reason they cost 25 cents.  Anyway, I have on clean pants....a win. And both legs on the pants are the same length.  Another failing at LL Bean.. Matching legs..... And two pair in the washing machine. Also with matching legs.  If I ever get back to wearing size 16 (the size of the other pants in the pile) I will have more to choose from....The fact that I hardly eat anything and still don't fit in those size 16 pants- is a mystery to me.  Perhaps they really aren't size 16.

Breakfast was fine- my coffee has been reheated for a second time and is nice and hot.   I noticed there are two Soccer matches on USA (channel) right now and some American football later..  Actually a soccer game is halfway to the finish as I type.  I haven't turned on the tv as yet....I was foolishly attempting to work on the Sunday sudoko puzzle. I believe they get harder every day as the week goes on- as do the crossword puzzles...which I no longer even try.

This book I am reading- Confessions of a Forty Something F**K Up- is holding my interest- I have read it before- perhaps even twice....before....on pages 140 and 148 are paragraphs that had insight into what I am going thru now...so I plan to go back and copy the words into a notebook.  A self help experience. If I continue as I have been going- I will never get better....I need to face things and get past them.... more like leave them behind and forget them....

I made progress yesterday and cooked- on the new stove--lunch or dinner- the clock has little to zero meaning for me at my age....it was just food and still daylight.  And I ate the food.  Washed my dish and the pan and returned to my seat on the couch.  I take up little space on the planet.

I have bills to pay- I should have written checks last week...but I didn't. Procrastination. Plain and Simple.