Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Just When I Was Ready To Give Up: the Universe Has Something To Say

Today began badly.  I woke up way too early, tried to go back to sleep, thought I had gone back to sleep, only to get up and dressed and find it was still 7:30.  On my day off.  It is humid and a bit cold today. So, I decided to switch my summer clothes for my fall clothes.  Which meant trying everything on.  I even tried on the test pants (which fit really great the last time) and found that they don't fit so great, today.  Anyway, I made two fall piles.  The stuff that definitely fits RIGHT NOW and the pile of stuff that needs a little more diet in order to fit.

And what was I ready to give up after that?  The diet.  Six months is a LONG time. And some days I see no results.  Who am I kidding?  Some MONTHS I see no results.  My rings are tight this week so I shouldn't even be thinking about trying on pants.  I shouldn't be noticing the belly fat when I take a shower. This was my mood.  I walked the dog.  Only one dog on the loose to make the walk "testy".  Then I picked up my shopping list (only 10 items) and ran off to the grocery.  In knit pants and that same plaid flannel shirt.

Ten times were on the list.  I got them all, checking them off as I put them in the cart.  Multiples of a few items and two extras; yogurt for me and 7#'s of Boston Pork Butt for pulled pork.  134 freaking dollars. Still not feeling the love for the grocery.  And that's when the Universe added it's two cents.

I was "helloed" by a neighbor.  The really attractive international flight attendant.  She runs. She's a natural blonde.  She wanted to tell me how great I was looking.  REALLY.  She said that.  And meant it.  We talked about diet and weight and she said she is always the same weight (plus or minus 5 pounds) but is sometimes a size 0 and sometimes an 8.  She said it makes no sense so she has stopped weighing herself.  She just stops eating (so much) when her flight uniform feels snug.  This made me feel better.  Sorry I had bought the yogurt.  But, ever so happy, I hadn't bought any cereal.

I promised Riley TWO walks today since I didn't walk him after doggie day care yesterday (as I have been trying to do) and he is remembering my promise.  My lunch was two HB eggs and a smear of mayo.  I think I have enough stamina to walk another 3 miles.  After all,  I am looking really great.

1 comment:

dee said...

well thank goodness someone else is telling you how great you look. You do!!

Part of losing a lot of weight is the mindset. Years ago I lost 55 lbs. and kept shopping in the same woman's dept. One day the sales person asked me what I was doing and why I wasn't looking in the juniors area. I just hadn't wrapped my mind around being thinner.
Repeat after me, "I am thinner and I feel better....rinse, repeat.