Good Morning... One more blog (that I USED to read) is now password protected.... I see the end of this road fast approaching.

 I do not have the password. Wasn't "invited in".  Pretty soon I will be typing these words and no one will want to read them.....no one will be available to read them....doors shut and locked.

The Sun is shining here in Maine....

I have another bill sitting here in the computer email.  Last time I tried printing an invoice I made like 7 to 20 copies (joke)...somehow.   Son says to tell him when I need an invoice copy to pay the bill and he will make the copies.....two.....one paper copy for my bill drawer and one to send with the payment.   

I slept well...Son has managed the heat being allowed to enter the house VERY WELL.....and last night the air outdoors was cooler than inside so I had two windows open and my "walk about" table sized fan in one of the windows.  Perfect.  Now the windows are closed....no fans....quite lovely in the house.

I did wake up crying...yet again--- I try to manage the worrying but some days......I cry.  I feel deep down that I wasted my life before or am wasting it now.....I recall other opportunities I had that I ignored.  I think this could be a book title "Living Life Backwards".  Sounds familiar so it might already be a book. 

I dug around in the bookcase for a "for certain" good book to read.  Decided on a "for certain" 100 percent library book. Anyone But You.  Crusie.  A small book. (size) but a real favorite of mine.....next up the Little Beach Street Bakery- Colgan... yet again.   I'd like to own copies of both. Someday.

Books two and three in the Lottery Win series...Still do not like them..... but dislike Three LESS than I REALLY DISLIKE Two.   Okay, let's move on..... I have books, I have salad for lunch,  a wedge of pizza from yesterday, the last banana..... lemonade....ice pops if it heats up here in Maine in the afternoon..

The soccer in the rain yesterday...I had to stop watching...just too difficult. You wait your whole career for a chance at the World Cup and......well..... Life happens as you are making different plans...yes????

That's my day....there will be late Lunch and a snack around Dinner Time.  The dark chocolate dots are in the fridge now...less available- they were getting soft in the heat.   I've done too much work on the Desk Calendar  (getting ahead of "Today's Date") so have to find something else to fill my afternoon...I did enjoy coloring the empty spaces though.  A bit too happy.

Good Morning......the Heat Wave has drifted off to somewhere else and we are nice and COOL here in Maine...

Took awhile but I got here with words in the right space.

The Maine Heat Wave has cooled off for the moment.  The sun is shining, the grass is green and the sky is blue.... a month early as Maine is actually best in August....I guess...as that is when all the New Yorkers show up in their expensive cars and clog everything up.

More Soccer today.  I have to check and see what's what.   My Lunch Buddy mentioned (in this morning's email) a few matches I might have missed).  But I'm sure I set all of them to record. Argentina.

The Maine Heat Wave has moved on....cool here in the house and I slept with a window open - very comfortable.  No reading was done yesterday.  I finally recognized a paragraph in the book...everything else was different.  So weird.   Firehouse with the firemen and fire woman eating subs and gossiping. Then I stopped and moved on to something else....page 34.  Book Two in the series is still a complete unknown....

Okay I have plenty of cold vegetables in the fridge for snacks during Soccer.  I do have some (very little) Ranch dressing I can mix with some mayo for a DIP.  IF I have mayo....

I cleaned off two window sills of assorted small items- little trinkets I picked up when I visited the Goodwill.  I don't do that anymore... as I realized I was "self medicating" with trips to Goodwill.  Not saying I'm in the best of "Mental Health" condition.....my son is the first to say I'm not.  But now I realize when I am tipping off the rails of mental health.   I try to make myself say "yes" to stuff...it's hard. No is always easier.........so Soccer, Book, Ice Pop, making Sunday Pizza and eating it with a big salad....

Very FULL Schedule ......I washed my hair yesterday- it's very FULL......I tried to get it under control but gave up...it's gonna do what it's gonna do....big wide shiny WHITE hair.  Got nice curl going as well.
 

Happy July Fourth. Was Sunny and Warm and now is cloudy and very warm. Then SUNNY again.

 I plan to enjoy Soccer and ignore the JERK pretending to be President.  

Son has our FLAG up on the porch.

It's getting hotter every day but the ceiling fans and the cool beverages help cool me down.  I also have a table top fan and move it around the house with me....  I want a shower but have to wait for my blood pressure to level out before entering a space that would be dangerous if I get light headed (there is a chair in the shower). Once was enough.  I sat in the shower chair until I could get up and shut off the water...do not want to do that again,

This Getting Old stuff was going Just Fine until it got hot and humid.  Now it's Sit, Read, Watch Soccer. Son says it's almost over.  We have Ice Pops.  In the Freezer. Son thought it was a weird grocery choice but he is enjoying the dark colored ones while I enjoy the pale colored ones.  

Saving the chocolate covered ice cream bars for a special occasion. Possibly to do with World Cup Soccer.

I ate half the cold grocery store fried chicken bites yesterday and saved the other half for today.   Protein.

I have a long trim board on the bedroom side of the back of the house that has rotted out....needs to be replaced before it gets filled with ants and rodents..   I don't have Repair People.   

As I was considering Repair People I have had working on this house--- I realized they were all named James.   None of the phone numbers I have are "in use".....

I have book two to read today in the Lottery Win Series....I never actually read number two but did read One and Three a few years ago.....the books I have were printed after that and it feels like they were edited heavily before the reprint......the dull stuff was removed.  I was not looking forward to the end of the first book but the re-edit fixed all of the Houston stuff- even a few plot points..  Today is Luck of the Draw.   I never actually read this one....because the intro was so terrible. So dull...So UGH. tomorrow I'll let you know if this book was also edited---after the first publication..

Friday July 3rd. It's HOT here in Maine and we are NOT used to it!!!!!! ZERO Central Air Conditioning.

 Wow, this has been quite a shock....the  heat ...

Library changed its schedule and was NOT open today....so I still have last week's books...and can read them again this week.  I have glasses of water in the fridge getting cold....water from the faucets is definitely NOT cold..... Shipped and the  Little Beach Bakery will be read again.. and again. Both books will be ordered for my personal bookcase......eventually.  Yesterday's book was from the bookcase...one of a group of three books....I'll be reading all three.

Too hot for me to go out shopping so Son said he did his "best" to get me food for the week...I have  so many wonderful salad vegetables to add to my big salad bowls.. "rabbit food"..gonna be a good week.  Hopefully this Heat will move off over the ocean. SOON. Or ocean breezes will come ashore.

We are waiting for daughter to have some time off work to help install the two window AC units.... she is working outside on landscaping so...exhausting.  And exhausted....probably just stands in a cold shower and then falls asleep.   One day after another.

Soccer has been good and it has been bad- a lack of good sportsmanship.....I know you want to win but sending someone to Urgent Care isn't the way to do it.

That's it- I have been in the house all week.......nothing great in emails and nothing interesting in  the mail..other than bills.   I need to hydrate.....take care.