Friday, March 25, 2016

Dreaming Or Wondering Why


Most of what is going on in my mind--happens at night.  While I am asleep.  The past two nights I have dreamed of "packing things up and moving".  My dear but estranged friend K was in one of the dreams.  Not speaking to me.  But being packed up and moved out.  I felt sad the rest of the day.

We had very wet and then very cold weather last night.  The sidewalks, grass etc are all frozen and slippery.  I walked out to get the morning paper on the grass.  Didn't want to fall and freeze to death before G wakes up at 10 am.   I was up at 7.  I think I would be pretty cold if left on the driveway for 3 hours.  And I wasn't wearing a coat.

I purchased two items at TJ Maxx yesterday after getting my hair cut.  One item is poorly constructed and is going back.  The tucks in either side of the front portion are different lengths.  I didn't notice it but did when I tried it on last night.  Too bad.  It was made of "gauze" fabric and I had a gauze blouse years ago and it was always my favorite item to wear on very hot, humid days.  The other item is a black and gray printed knit.  Has those angled sides which cover the hips.  Has a button up top so you get two "looks" for one item.  Closed it looks dressy enough for a dinner date.  I NEVER wear printed clothing.  Only solid colors.  I am 60% sure I will return it today before work. It's probably too large for me.  I am trying not to stock my closet with "big" clothing.  Hoping I am not big for much longer.  Why am I never comfortable in my own body?  But it would be nice to be able to tie my shoes without difficulty.

I wonder why I prefer solid to print.

I wonder why there never seems to be enough time in a day when I am back at work and why there is way too much time in a day when I am not working.

I wonder if there is a way to repair Birkenstock clogs.  One of mine fell apart at work on Thursday. ( I waited on customers with one shoe on and one shoe off)  The shoe just broke apart into the different sections.  Shoe top, insert and bottom.  We tried the hot glue gun. No luck.  The boys at work suggested duct tape.  But we couldn't find it.  I went on line and found the same shoe (they never change) but the $140 price tag put me off.  I got the pair that broke in a resale shop for $8.  Never worn.  I have had them for a very long time.  G is going to try Gorilla Glue but they may just be too worn out to be saved.

I am also wondering who the 20 to 100 people are who read this blog each day.  They are all over the world map.  And all but 10 are unknown to me.  They never comment.  But then, on the blogs where people do comment--they say things like "that's so nice" and not much more.

I wonder what it would be like to send out 20 to 100 letters by mail and receive zero replies.  Would you continue to send the letters?  Would you continue to write just because hope springs eternal?  Or is the writing more for the writer than the reader?  I try to encourage myself and the reader.

I wonder what I should pack for lunch today.  Salad or yogurt and fruit.  A bowl of soup would be nice but I don't happen to have any ready made.

7 comments:

Susan Sawatzky said...

"I wonder what it would be like to send out 20 to 100 letters by mail and receive zero replies. Would you continue to send the letters? "

Makes me think of my daughter who is trying online dating. One day a couple of weeks ago she had five dates lined up for Fri-Sun. Out of 5 only 1 showed up and he turned out to have a prison record. The rest did not even bother to call, text or signal that they were not going to show. Her comment was that with so many ways to communicate these days you'd think people could at least send a smoke signal.

Paula, the quilter said...

You should be able to find an authorized Birkenstock shoe repair. Can you believe we have one in my little town? I had them resole my Birkenstock sandals several years ago.

Deborah Boschert said...

My mom had her Birks repaired. It's worth finding a cobbler. Cobbler?!! I made Thai shrimp soup last week and even the leftovers were delicious.

Anonymous said...

I would like to congratulate you on your acceptance to Hogwarts.

Jan Moorman said...

I'm one of those people that don't comment, sorry. I follow your blog because we are about the same age, and I live my life vicariously through you. I live in Ohio, love New England, and take care of my 92 year old mom who lives with me. Ill try to comment more often! Take care. Jan

Life Scraps and Patches said...

I wonder whether you could even out the tucks yourself since you really like the shirt. You could either lengthen the short ones, or, if you don't want to get out the sewing machine, take the stitches out of the long ones. I love creative mending.

Gretchen said...

Seems like you're wondering a lot. I think we all go through those times when we just wonder about everything. Mostly, I think we are unhappy or unsatisfied with where we are in life or what we are doing but not quite sure what to do about it...in other words, stuck! I know I have been in that situation - more than once. When you get to our age (or at least mine of 70) it's bound to happen. For me, I wasn't exactly unhappy, just felt that something was missing. That there should be more to my life but I wasn't able to see what. I decided that I did need a change. But a change within my own life's parameters. For me, I began learning new things. Some I liked and continued with, others, not so much so I let them go. They helped me find a new road in life to explore. Maybe when you wonder, you may stumble on the things that not only make you wonder, but fascinate as well. Good luck