Friday, March 25, 2016
Dreaming Or Wondering Why
Most of what is going on in my mind--happens at night. While I am asleep. The past two nights I have dreamed of "packing things up and moving". My dear but estranged friend K was in one of the dreams. Not speaking to me. But being packed up and moved out. I felt sad the rest of the day.
We had very wet and then very cold weather last night. The sidewalks, grass etc are all frozen and slippery. I walked out to get the morning paper on the grass. Didn't want to fall and freeze to death before G wakes up at 10 am. I was up at 7. I think I would be pretty cold if left on the driveway for 3 hours. And I wasn't wearing a coat.
I purchased two items at TJ Maxx yesterday after getting my hair cut. One item is poorly constructed and is going back. The tucks in either side of the front portion are different lengths. I didn't notice it but did when I tried it on last night. Too bad. It was made of "gauze" fabric and I had a gauze blouse years ago and it was always my favorite item to wear on very hot, humid days. The other item is a black and gray printed knit. Has those angled sides which cover the hips. Has a button up top so you get two "looks" for one item. Closed it looks dressy enough for a dinner date. I NEVER wear printed clothing. Only solid colors. I am 60% sure I will return it today before work. It's probably too large for me. I am trying not to stock my closet with "big" clothing. Hoping I am not big for much longer. Why am I never comfortable in my own body? But it would be nice to be able to tie my shoes without difficulty.
I wonder why I prefer solid to print.
I wonder why there never seems to be enough time in a day when I am back at work and why there is way too much time in a day when I am not working.
I wonder if there is a way to repair Birkenstock clogs. One of mine fell apart at work on Thursday. ( I waited on customers with one shoe on and one shoe off) The shoe just broke apart into the different sections. Shoe top, insert and bottom. We tried the hot glue gun. No luck. The boys at work suggested duct tape. But we couldn't find it. I went on line and found the same shoe (they never change) but the $140 price tag put me off. I got the pair that broke in a resale shop for $8. Never worn. I have had them for a very long time. G is going to try Gorilla Glue but they may just be too worn out to be saved.
I am also wondering who the 20 to 100 people are who read this blog each day. They are all over the world map. And all but 10 are unknown to me. They never comment. But then, on the blogs where people do comment--they say things like "that's so nice" and not much more.
I wonder what it would be like to send out 20 to 100 letters by mail and receive zero replies. Would you continue to send the letters? Would you continue to write just because hope springs eternal? Or is the writing more for the writer than the reader? I try to encourage myself and the reader.
I wonder what I should pack for lunch today. Salad or yogurt and fruit. A bowl of soup would be nice but I don't happen to have any ready made.