You get a landscape this morning... I read a good enough book yesterday...I recalled in the last 50 pages..that I had read it once before. I haven't selected today's book as yet....as I am considering doing a bit more handsewing of scraps etc..... Work that requires no thinking. There are football games.
I have Christmas Day food I need to start cooking and eating before it goes bad. Tomorrow we make pizza. I may freeze some of the Christmas food and eat it in January.
I am having to spell check what I type as the computer now finishes typing words for me....getting to "know" me.
My December desktop calendar is full...not much room for anymore pasted images or drawings..... I have the new 2025 calendar next to my chair.....ready to go.
I slept well. I feel rested....but I also feel tired. I think I am bored....I've run out of things that spark joy. I am left with things that do not spark anything at all. I sit and stare at the wall. Wondering at how I was dumb enough to waste so much of my Life and now- that I have time- I have no energy or interest.
This could be depression....it could just be a lack of motivation. Could be anything at all. Could be nothing at all. I still take showers, wear clean clothing, brush my teeth, have an interest in reading, I eat. (when I feel hungry)........watching tv isn't as interesting as it once was......and I will admit to taking books back to the library unread...because the book is boring....I read the good ones cover to cover.
Anyway, I have read the paper, filled in two squares of the daily sudoko and have reheated my coffee, written to you and I will settle into the couch....with today's book. and the pile of scrap cloth....oh, it's Saturday- an afternoon of PBS Cooking Shows.....yeah!!!!!
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