Daily Notes- Thursday, April 23rd....Sun and clouds and clouds and Sun. Here in Maine- 46 degrees.

 Grape Hyacinth, Viola, Forget Me Not, Donkey Tail and Spurge.  I feel a Blue Summer Coming. When- ever I skip past the Home Shopping Network (while going other places) I see plants....often blue.

I have on Winter clothing... I turned the heat up...the HUGE Oil Delivery Truck was leaving as I walked into the living room....Best window view of the front of the yard and drive.  No longer get a paper copy of the amount of oil...have to wait for an email.  Surprise!!!!!  Not as huge a surprise as Tucker Carlson dumping Trump.....but still a SURPRISE.

I'm losing my mind"grip" on Time....I am drifting....I think it's what happens as we approach our 80's???? though I think by the time I get to my 80th Birthday Cake- I will have already finished my 80th year. And will be embarking on the 81st.   

Time has little meaning for me.... these days... I seem to drift....and that's okay and even very nice.

I have nowhere to go- well next week is the dentist...  I'll go there..... I have a baked sweet potato for lunch....hours from now.

And will look up Donkey Tail....see if it grows in Maine.

I want to go looking at the supply table in the garage....but I'm a bit "tippy" this week so I'll wait to be supervised.....I want to see what supplies I have there....I also want to find the long handled rake with the very small head.....for raking between things.  Out back. Perhaps from a seated position.  Slowly.

Oil was $765.....

Daily Notes Wednesday April 22nd, Missed a Day. Called in sick.

 Hyssop.   I'm seriously considering buying some for the left side bed out front.  They get tall. and would be nice to have some tall stuff growing over there....Also buying some as a companion for the grapes...which have returned, yet again to the back garden.... supposed to do well together.  And some for next to the back deck. Let them spread.

The blue is quite lovely.

I spent some TIME looking for something yesterday...got me off track..... I found a few things but not what I was looking for.   Finding Your Roots was pretty good.... other than that TV was slim to none.

I don't have great hopes for today either.  I will eventually give up and return to Law and Order. And to mending that antique patchwork quilt.  Replacing frayed rotted out cloth strips with new strips that play well with the old stuff.. not an easy task. I have given up on "matching" other than color.

I had GREAT DIFFICULTY choosing a book to read yesterday which took a chunk out of my scheduled. reading time....I NEVER did pick one.  There was the swamp and alligator one...sigh.  I don't recall ever actually reading that one.  The filthy castle with animals living inside? ...that was okay.  I recalled the ending so I must have read it once before.   Quite a few of those books turn out okay once the woman cleans the place up......but read one... etc..... Daughter bought me a three book series....I liked book one. Before she went and bought all three....not sure about book two...three was difficult. Beginner's Luck (book one) was great.  

I have soup for today's lunch... Yesterday I felt "under the weather" all day- not exactly "sick" but not great.  I had chills and was under a quilt with a heating pad...tried to sleep but I just can't during the day And today?  So far okay.   But already tired at 10:30 am. 

Daily Notes for Monday April 20th....The Sun is shining here in Maine...45 degrees???? Clouds arrive after I typed this.

 I have used up all the images on the desk top.  Need to find new ones or skip the photo.

My hair is behaving...curling under....not quite long enough to gather and twist into a messy bun. Another month.  My Dental Appointment is coming up soon....I got an email.

I woke up tired.  It happens.  Perhaps not physically tired but emotionally tired if that makes sense. My LIFE HISTORY is unwinding and repeating itself endlessly in a LOOP while I sleep.......I see where I messed up....again and again. I can't go back in Time and make different choices.... so why keep showing me my mistakes??????  At least it's not that ride in the dark empty bus....that dream was endless and very disturbing. I finally stopped having it........but remembered it this morning.

And at almost 80-...what new things are there?   None. I used to wish for a new cashmere sweater. I got two hand me down acrylic pullovers..with a zip necks....wear them every day now....good enough.

Some of the grass....here....is greener than the rest.  Gonna be an interesting Summer. For a Perfectionist Lawn Owner.   I have Guys who will mow....I could mow myself..... but starting the mower is way too confusing for me. Husband always got it going for me and I mowed the grass...then he forgot how to start the mower......and I hired guys.

I woke up tired....I'm still tired.....Monday so no newspaper. So I stood and looked out the window...no news outside either.  And here I am with nothing to type.  Well, my oatmeal was very good.....I have an old book to finish reading....and I am searching for something else to read. After.

I have a long scribbled list (on the desk calendar)  of Jane Austin read-a- likes...mostly modern. Unmarriageable might be in the bookcase.. NO.. Curtis Sittenfeld's  Eligible is there all alone.. I also have Longbourne....incredibly sad....  I might also have the Other Bennet Sister....lost somewhere in the bookcase.  But I have other books to read.  Pride and Premeditation?  Sense and Second Degree?  No... I might see if any Library in Maine has these....laughing.

Daily Notes for Sunday, April 19th. Raining here in Maine and I had to turn up the furnace.

 I have raised beds like these out back (just dirt no plants)....fenced in because Maine has lots of foraging deer.  I have hoops also to pre heat the soil so I can defend against the cold Maine Spring.  The cloth that goes over the hoops is hard to find...we sold it at the greenhouse where I worked but in the my final years there- not always in stock.  Clear plastic is on option but...not sure where to find it or who would help me spread it over the hoops. And then in the heat of Summer-- it would be a disaster.  Watering back there is also a problem I have to think about.   Would have been nice to have dug a DEEP trench and run plumbing out there.  Could still happen.

The rain we are having has "'greened" up my over fertilized lawn.  It has been brown since last June. The green is still a bit splotchy and sort of yellow......but I will take whatever I can get.

I have a book on the table next to my bed now....for reading.  Usually in the morning.  No rush to get out of bed.   Each day is pretty much like ALL the others.  Seen one...seen them all.

I just finished reading a Devereaux book that comes before Met Her Match....but AFTER the Girl from Summerhill.   My intention today is a book about "wishes" where three unhappy women get to make a wish on how they would have made a different decision and changed their lives.  The Girl From Summerhill is actually my favorite book....Jane Austin's Pride and Prejudice is the backbone of this story. I always keep it for the LAST book I read.....when doing the series.

I know for sure I haven't found or read all the authors who take Jane Austin's books as a framework for a modern book....I have found several different modern renditions of Jane Eyre. And like them even though I have never read the original Jane Eyre.  Or ANY original Jane Austin.  

After book reading stops in a few weeks--I plan to paint a watercolor or two.... The urge to paint is getting stronger as the Winter turns to Spring.

Reading and British Soccer today....Pizza after 4 pm.  My Morning Coffee needs a reheating.  Even though I just had my oatmeal I am feeling "snacky". but not a clue what to eat.