Olle Bolle.
I'm in a dark and sad place today. Corrected on everything I say or do. I know it's difficult to be living in the same spaces with me and he does spend a large percentage of his day away or up in the space upstairs. Where he has his electronics. His large screen tv. His Life. I never bother him while he is up there.
We eat at different times. Ships passing in the night. Very much like my marriage.
I spend my days as I usually do...but I guess I am doing it all wrong.
He has been invited to spend the day with his sister- they are going to have lunch together...talk.
I am here doing laundry, changing the sheets on my bed. Thinking I want to buy new pillows and pillow protectors from Cuddledown. (just up the road a bit, in Freeport). G was a very "oily" person and his pillows and cases are stained yellow. And they feel greasy no matter how I wash them... I want to replace them. But I need transportation...unless I call them and have the times sent. From one small town to the one next door....sounds ridiculous.
I finished Jane and Edward. I will buy the book for my collection. I ordered a copy of Jane Eyre from the library to read that and see what I think.... I have reheated my coffee three or four times- I am going to toss it and start over......watch MSNBC even though son asks me NOT to. He watches no news. Perhaps there is a Hallmark Movie???? I am exhausted. Emotionally exhausted. I'd like to be able to stop crying.
poor him: no news. he doesn't know what he is missing. Sorry, but no one can dictate what you watch LOL
ReplyDeleteI am on my 4th coffee-heating
what, did they overpay you?
ReplyDeleteI know they overpaid me on unemployment and I ended up paying them 10K. They said 7k overpayment, which I paid then they sent me a bill for the interest!!! I was going to fight it but I was so exhausted dealing with death stuff, probate, etc, that I just said, what the hell, and paid it.
Well, that's two more coffee reheatings than I did--- I finally spilled the cup out and started over....
ReplyDeleteWe had Football Pizza and it got a bit too crispy so next time I have to check on it midway. He worried my oven wouldn't get hot enough- it got hot enough. I am buying Medicinal Dark Chocolate at the grocery tomorrow.
The October SS for Gary was deposited BEFORE he died but in the MONTH he died so it had to go back..so the next tow months they will take all or most of the payment to cover October's mistake.
ReplyDeleteNo payment in month of the DEATH. It's a RULE. so, since it's already in my checking account...they are
getting that back by not sending November's corrected death benefit payment and part of December for the remainder.
But January will be the correct amount...until I die. I have enough in the checking account so it's okay.
I am guessing the October payment is larger than what I will be getting going forward....so it will take two months to cover all of it... I am hoping what they are implying is not all of the December payment? But All of the November payment for sure..