Daily Notes- October 10th

Well......yesterday.  The Vet visit was first up.  Liver numbers are higher than they EVER were.  No improvements even though it felt like the dog was improving.  Was easier to live with. Sleeping.  And he's lost weight.  Like almost 10 pounds the Vet says.  She asks about drinking water.  I guess when he starts drinking lots of water.......it's the end.

Riley now has edible cannabinoid treats.  To help him be "comfortable".  Made him sleepy and then when he woke up he wanted to play with his toys.  G said Riley was sleeping so soundly last night that G checked to see if the dog was dead. He wasn't. That...would have been more than I could deal with.

I took Riley out to get the paper with me this morning and he was as bouncy as he had been in good health.  The original Vet had wanted Riley to weigh what he does now.  Not the 90 plus pounds he carried in his middle years. So Dr H. would be happy with 77 pounds. Less weight on the bad knees.

I unsewed the stuff I sewed on a piece of cloth the day before.  It was awful.  I am stuck.  Nothing I make looks good.  I might just revert to making "class work" and make a small nine patch into a "wishing star" like the one in the class video I watched yesterday.  The stuff up top is just a pile of bleached black cloth.  I love bleached black cloth when it bleaches to this almost white  but I love the black that bleaches to a tan best of all.  I just really like bleached cloth. Even when the cloth is red or brown or green.  Moody.  Mysterious.  Organic.

I have a new (to me) Cruisie/Mayer book.  I liked that first one very much and now...well, I want to self medicate with a book and not spend time thinking about things (dog) that makes me cry. Riley is just a feet feet from my right shoulder.  Watching me type. He watched me eat breakfast and read the paper.  We spend quite a bit of the day together- just Riley and Me-- he'll watch and doze off as I read my book. I'll know right where he is and he'll know right where I am.

I took my first "Lipitor" last night at bedtime.  I read all of your thoughtful comments and decided I should try it and if it helps-- great.  I have a 90 day supply and no refills.  That's what my doctor ordered. I am thinking we'll do a lipid test at that time and then go forward.  That's all I've got today.

So a wishing star.....