Daily Notes- June 15th

I added the dotted fabric.  When I took it away I missed it.  Says something.  I added strips to the area above the flags.  I have eyes for the area at the top.  They want to be up there.  I don't think it's the right choice.  We are discussing.  And I have been cutting away fabric from the back of the piece.  The surface was getting lumpy.  There is only white where I haven't added a layer.

Family Walk was buggy.  I wanted to be looking up and ahead to enjoy the woods.  I tripped and ALMOST fell twice.  I would probably bounce (lots of extra padding) but I would also wet my pants. I did not fall.  So the rest of the walk I looked mostly at my feet.  I would stop while walking to look around.  Enjoy Nature.

My blood sugar is off today.  I feel dizzy.  Too many carbs for breakfast.  I had toast.  I am better when I eat cereal.  I should have some protein.  That would re-balance things.  A big spoon of peanut butter-extra crunchy equals 7 grams of protein or more. And a big glass of water.  Now I feel better.

Morning Pages.  All I can really say about them is that my handwriting is beautiful and very very consistent.  I try to write about ways in which I am procrastinating.  That's my major fault.  And while writing I meander off that subject and it might take a page or more for me to realize it.  Right now I am finding all sorts of reasons not to fill, fertilize and plant up my Grow Boxes.  Mosquitos. Heat.  Humidity.  Fatigue.  Over and over in a nice tight circular thought process.

I also don't want to get sweaty and covered in dirt.  That's the main reason I retired from greenhouse work.  Always sweaty and covered in dirt.  The only upside to a day at work was lemonade ice pops from the freezer at work.  And then someone else starting eating them all.  So I retired--which might have been the plan by the other employees.

We tried to go out to eat yesterday.  Couldn't find a shady parking spot for the dog. So we came home and had a terrible meal from the freezer and some very nice steamed rice that I made.

We usually grill in the summer--marinated kabobs.  Vegetables.  Steamed rice.  For some reason the steak tips I usually bought and marinaded are now more than twice the price of last summer.  A ridiculously high price for off cuts. And, more to the point, G says our "grill doesn't work anymore"-news to me.  And of course he wants a new one.  I suggested the old round Weber in the cellar and charcoal.  We haven't grilled anything and I doubt that we will.  A big new fancy grill (you should see the shiny HUGE old grill on the shed porch) to cook a few kabobs two times a week for the 8 weeks of summer???  No. Just no.

As a kid back in Cleveland, we grilled like almost everyday my dad was home (and sober) and after he stopped drinking and the teens and I came home from Germany for a few weeks each summer--we grilled almost every evening.  Wheeled the grill from the garage to the driveway next to the back door.  Everyone had a webbed aluminum folding chair. And a long metal fork for toasting marshmallows.  I liked mine to catch on fire and get really black.