Saturday the 14th of December...Sunshine and 24 degrees here in Maine.

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The SUN is shining... I am having Columbian Coffee (instant but NOT decaf) from Trader Joes with cream and Splenda.  My intention when the Splenda runs out- to just use sugar- I already use sugar in my cups of decaf tea. Or just dump the Splenda and go straight over to sugar.  I am down to two daily pills...a multi vitamin and the smallest size statin that they make... and I think that pill is only a "cover his ass" pill for my doctor. The Statin my husband took was as large as my multi vitamin.

I've had a nice shower and washed my hair....I have a load of clothing in the washer.  I think I passed the point of no return yesterday......on being Listless.  Lifeless.  Have decided Life is short and I need to just ENJOY myself......I'm NOT the one who died. Stop acting like it WAS me.

Son is very happy that the broken riding mower (John Deere) is now GONE.  It got picked up yesterday and now has a new owner..... if you recall husband driving over a full gas can- setting the thing on fire- you now know how that story ends........with the mower no longer in the side yard covered in a blue tarp. Daughter is finished with the Sewing Room....it's all organized and all that is left are the things I cannot decide to keep or let go.  She has the discard pile somewhere..knowing I'm going to say...have you seen.......?  I say throw cloth away and then I realize I needed it....I actually don't NEED anything.

All the SHARP things are in ONE place....so I don't accidentally cut myself.  DebL's cloth and thread is in the living room next to my couch.  Next to ME.  My favorite things to do are to sort, fold and rearrange all that stuff.  My Happy Place.  A favorite  quilt....made for my dear friend Beverly years ago, is now on my bedroom wall behind the Buddha... it came back to me after her sudden death one December.   I got her Christmas card in the mail that day.  The Quilt was on her coffin....Her daughter said it was Bev's favorite thing...that she traced each hand appliquéd leaf with her fingers each day.  (photo tomorrow)

When it doubt, and this is NEW for ME, I let go.  Yes.....I let go.  Time is short- and all those projects etc....I don't have the time or interest for them anymore.  I'd rather fool around with DebL's dyed cloth and especially her thread.......I'm considering a hand lettered sampler (like the ones DebL makes)....Life would be perfect if I had my co-pilot Riley still here underfoot.  I might return to watching Law and Order.  Like going back in Time.

Well I think I should go check on the washing machine and if done- start the second load...