September Notes- September 12th. sunny here in Maine- 67 with some Canadian Wild Fire smoke.

 out of the Polaris capsule........making history in Space.

Three hydrangea arrived late in the afternoon.  I covered them in netting overnight.  We haven't had many deer visiting but- fresh produce is always a lure.   I gave each a gallon of water this morning.  They look a bit worn out....possibly the ride in the car. Possibly sad no one bought them when they were fresh.  Hurt Feelings.  Tomorrow I will "juice them up with blue water".  Drugs.

We have smoke coming in from Canada....again. All the windows are shut tight.

I finished the second book by Louise Miller who is actually a Boston Pastry Chef.  So the recipes in the books are legit.  I am at loose ends regarding today's book.  I get to pick up new ones tomorrow.  I few of my choices last week are going back unread.   Last Friday was sort of a bummer day for book picking.

I have one request waiting- possibly two depending on the new service's first week.  Like a Shake Down Week.  Get all the kinks out.

I slept...I lay awake this morning with all sorts of thoughts going thru my head......exhausting. I actually would like to wake up to a new reality...like it happens in some of the books I read......that I made different choices and this new reality is actually my Life.  I would be making different choices based on the very poor choices I did make.  I would NOT have married my husband...for sure, I regret that.

One mistake like that and it's a house of cards tipping over......you can never never fix any of it no matter how hard you try.  I am hoping I get a Second Chance in a Second Lifetime- after I die.  Thinking this is what keeps me going......... I don't expect any miracles in the last years of this Life.

Mostly I am un-packing boxes and sending things to Goodwill.  Death Cleaning.