Winter Notes- Wednesday, December 27th. Another Dismal Wet Rainy Day.

 Another picture from the same artist as yesterday.  Red Pear this Time.  I have a drawing of a red pear somewhere.  I should go looking and I should also make a New Year Resolution to at least.....do one a week. I have a vague feeling I saw some of this Artist's work years ago and that is why I have the Pomegranite Drawings.  Possibly why I have a Pear.  It seems likely........and now I find this artist again. Like Fate has a hand in this re-discovery. A Nudge. In Hallmark speak- a Godwink.

We had a Family Meal together yesterday.  There was the usual bickering... but now I realize it's just the way we deal with each other......because we are all, consciously or un- trying to be the "best" at anything. I usually give up on that......older and slower and just not really trying anymore.  Who cares if I dice onion better than you do????

After the visit to the new kitchen next door I am really WANTING a WOLF RANGE with Red Knobs..... which is 20 years TOO LATE.....I just don't cook anymore.......I'm happiest with a grilled cheese sandwich with the addition of a whole lot of sweet pickle slices.  Finally at 77 I have lost my appetite for food. I miss meals etc.....just not hungry.  I did eat TWO Desserts at Christmas Dinner.

My Additional Medicare Coverage sent me the listing of all charges made...for husband.....pages and pages and pages. Lots of them denied. And they sent my new card.  Just mine.  So much washed over me........like waves of memory....the bad days and the worse days...all in the past but echoing.....so I am in a very fragile place right now....just going yo finish reading a possibly good romance.......hard to say at the halfway point- things are moving very very slowly.  I could still be disappointed.

My eyes are dry...from salty tears or just dry Winter house.....Hallmark was even a disappointment yesterday.  I need to find a new source of entertainment..

.....as to Kansas City Football.  Difficult to say why things are going so badly....for some teams and not others.... Lamar Jackson and the Ravens!!!! Locally we all love Zappe.