Daily Notes- April 8th

The TAXES are DONE.  There were two panic episodes when I couldn't find a paper I needed.  But they are done and all is right with the world.  And, as usual, it all went much faster than I feared.  Daughter's taxes and Ours.  I'm going to go eat chocolate birthday cake now. Still SNOWING!!!
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Well, here in Maine we are celebrating April Fool's Day one week late.  It's SNOWING!
The sidewalks are covered and the trees are getting covered in white.  It keeps falling. I am not happy.

I started a new week with the Artist Morning Pages today.  Grace once commented that she had found the process "circular" when she had done the pages.  Meaning, I see now, as going over the same ground repeatedly.  I'm not sure how much has improved in my Life with the Pages.  But I sleep much better.  I'm not making any art.

And perhaps that should be enough. Sleeping without the terrible dreams.

I am looking for "things to do" as a form of avoidance.  I don't want to do the taxes but I am NOT allowing myself to do any of the avoidance tasks.  I am also saying no to any media.  I am saying no to cloth.  I am even saying no if I should decided it's the perfect time to vacuum the entire house, clean the refrigerator, scrub toilets with a toothbrush or plant seeds.  Not allowed to do any of that.

My choices today--are to sit and do absolutely NOTHING or do the TAXES.

It feels like the choices given to a misbehaving toddler.