Wednesday, April 17, 2019

Daily Notes- April 17th


These are a few of my favorite things.........

A house is always the first choice in a drawing.  I think of a house as shelter, safety, home.  I had a home as a child but it wasn't sheltering or safe.  I spent much of my pre-school play trying to "build a house" and then in Kindergarten-they had a life-sized child's playhouse.  They couldn't get me out of it.  I wanted to live in it all by myself.  I was given a bad mark in the sharing column.

I see these simple pictures over and over again in my journals.  Child-like.  An emotional litmus test.

I went out for a Walk with my Friend this morning.  She asked if we could walk down to the bridge over the river and I said yes.  The Spring (snow melt) water is deep and running fast over the rocks. Quite a dangerous place if one gets too close to the edge.  We didn't.  And then we walked back into Town- the Maine Street and farther along onto the campus of Bowdoin College.  I wanted to know where the concert hall was located.  The college sponsors concerts during the summer.  Student and professionals.  I had wanted to know where it was so I could try and attend a few this summer.  The concert hall used to house the college swimming pool.  So the acoustics are excellent.

I watched  7 episodes of Chef's Table on Netflix yesterday.  Nothing much happens.  Usually there is a story narrative on how the Chef came to be a chef.  Motivation.  And the images are usually quite beautiful.  Usually.  The episodes I watched are the current ones.  Interesting but not as visually beautiful. Eventually I'll get back to the original ones.  Little talking.  Just pictures.  Especially the Korean chef who is a Buddhist monk.  I want to see that one again.  There is also a chef who builds a fire on a snow covered shoreline.  It's like a meditation.

I am needing meditative things.

I added a few more strips of one inch squares to the pink center.  Yellows, blue, greens, tan and a new pink.  The pink needed to show up again.  For continuity. So I broke my word to myself and cut more pink squares.  And because the sides are getting longer and longer--I needed more of the other colors (I had enough green) to balance everything.  I make rules and then break them.  I think as the square gets larger and more multicolored-- things will work--but right now the center pink square looks like a mistake.  I should have started adding the other colors sooner.   I could have stopped then--when I saw that the pink center was wrong--but I didn't.  I'll take another picture of it after I finish today's two sides.  There is a tiny voice in my head saying--you can cut away the threads and remove  a few of the interior pinks and replace then with colors.  That tiny voice always thinks something like  that will be "easy to do" and it never is.

That Tiny Voice is always getting me in trouble.


1 comment:

  1. Can absolutely relate to making rules and then breaking them. Sometimes wonder why I spend energy making rules. . and always thinking a task will be simple. Good to know we’re not alone in those types of thinking 😉.

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